My parents got divorced when I was 10. I'm 16 now.
My mom lives in a whole other state, might as well forget her.
My dad has no job, but dare I say that to him because the business he is running is his job. Its not a job if you don't make any money.
We live in a 2 bedroom house. One parent, four kids. Dad has his own room so he can sleep on his bed because his back is bad. The two youngest boys have there own room, their in there almost all day playing video games with no other care or obligation in the world. My older sister is never home always out staying where ever she wants and "partying". I sleep on a rock of couch every night.
If I can get out of bed, or couch I suppose, I wake up at 5 every morning to go to seminary at my church, the only reason dad let's me is so he can get the church to pay for his car. It helps out my day a little bit.
I go to school after that, I do good in class but rarely have time to concentrate and do my homework so my grades are poor.
I have a job to, I don't get much hours but enough to pay for a few of my "luxuries". Which mostly means my phone, sometimes I can't even afford my phone bill.
I want to drop out of school so I can afford to move out but I can't because what I really want is to do something with my life, not like my parents. I want to go to college, and have a career to support my family when I get there. I want to achieve my dreams and if this is the only way to get there I'm strapping up for the bumpy ride.
I met a boy when I was 15, about a year and a half almost 2 years ago. I was so insecure I lost my virginity to him.
I got on the deprovera shot (birth control) and we never used condoms. No I didn't get pregnant but I did get fat, which makes every day that much harder for a person who was use to eating anything they wanted to and not gaining weight.
I'm still with him, I love him, at least I think I do, which for now is good enough. I am comfortable with him. Were suppose to be getting married. This is one of the only thing I hold on to in my times of sorrow and realisation.
This is the gist of my life, I may write more, check back to anyone who reads and cares.
